A psalm to sing

No words and thoughts,
are worthy of thou,
love and mercy unending,

unworthy of your love,
unworthy of the , ur, blood
Yet again he astounds.

Perspectives may differ,
opinions may change,
yet u stay the same.

Created in your likeness,
imperfect in our ways,
Yet you forgive,
Yet you cry,
Yet you bleed,
Yet you died.......y?

Complementing , searching,strivingm
not by my strength .But urs.
Not my will but urs..

Yet.
Free will ,you never restrain.
due to your love.You let US stay the same

Yet.
your love astounds.touches.
Changes.Changed.Inside out.
We may not cry.We may not bleed.

But the change we see is YOUR light in me....

Amen....Let it be....
ur love for me..

my life now..

jz prayin that i delight in the lord..forever..
school is scaring me really..
alot..

jz coz i havent started..jz coz i dunno how bad it will be..jz oz i dunno how much im gonna overload myyself..

1.studies 2.worship min 3.jym 4.part time job 5.exercise n my own leisure activities like wushu 6.cca? 7.frens?

jz thinkin of it is enuf to give me a migraine..
i love worshiping...
i love being in church..
startin to wonder again wat direction it might take me..

but then...looking at ti makes me realise rest is NOT included into the picture..

3 years of travelin back n forth

lookin forward to a fruitful relationship with some1..

time passin like it has a deadline to meet

but being rich due to special ppl in my life

struggling with life

struggling with life with god beside me

mmm...only god n time can tell...my daddy in heaven..i beseech u..let not my old habits take over..let not my human nature crowd u out..let not my overcrowded mind drown ur sweet soft voice..i may never haf heard u personally..i have seen n felt ur wonders..i know its silly to ask coz uv blessed me so..but..yes i do want to hear u father...

let my relatiionship with hu not only be about wat i do..n wat u do..but for it to be the walk with u..for me to becomin pleasing not for myself ,my parents,my future spouse,the world..BUT...for U...

amen

jz something i felt like saying today

Father in heaven, i pray that you will always be with us. That we shall not only be receptive but obedient to overcome temptation, and to always keep you in our hearts, minds and spirit, so that our focus will not be on worldly things but on you Lord. I pray that you give us strength and the drive to glorify your name. I love you. Amen."

its odd..how its easy to ask for things from god...but

so hard for us to listen to him..

Its a new dawn..its a new day...n m feelin?

wow..its amazing wat simple little decisions..n dedications can fo to ur entire life..i never realised the severity of making decision until now..it doesnt make 24 hours 25..but it sure makes the way we use them alot clearer..

I had a very enjoyble day ytdy..with someone special n hoping he will remind special for 'sometime'...if god wills it..

At the moment m jz trying to make sure i put god in the midst of everything i do..in every little decision...sounds easier said than done..

we tend to forget our focus as we amble/RUN through life at a high speed..(singapore's kiasuism is partly to blame)..but then,its again up to us..to decide..m hoping that this month will pass quickly n that i will settle down into a groove..haha kinda getting sick of not knowing wat will be thrown at me week after week..its funny,but routine is quite relaxing after a while(unless ur mugging)

GAMBATE>>to all ppl with exams n school ppl..i shall once again be joining the rat race ranks..so sad..but unavoidable..

in the meantime..SOMEONE PLZ REMIND ME TO DO MY MEMORY VERSES:P

mixed blessings=curse ?

Thank u god..for bringin

sunchine into my life recently..it comes with its shadows..

but it helps that sunshine makes shadows disappear slowly..there will always be the dark places n times..but thank you for bringing that sunshine...

it may be for a lil while..i hope it will last..butm grateful again that u kow wat i need..

jeremiah 29:12- 13..may it be truly n fully..my heart..

memories

In a square...

had an interesting experience today..

i had a structured well almost structured bible study today..with a wonderful lady named felicia..its funny..as usual how god brings ppl into ur lives..good or bad..depending on perspective and how you not only let them change ur l ife but u affect theirs.

M now sitting(at work) in the pe office of TJC(my old junior college)..snackin..using free net n listenin to music..for those who m wonderin WAT im workin as,lets jz say im employered to jz be here in case something happens..its funny how the world works n if u have the connections the luck n the opportunity u can lead a pretty easy life..

but back to it..felicia n me haf ALOT of similiarities which i would not have seen by jz knowing her on a week in out basis.We went through the same experiences(despite her experience being about 10 years ago)..N its comforting to see that the end result can be a happy one..

For those who actually read these ramblings..i thank you for being a part of my life..to those who i haf neglected i apologize..for those that still r close to me..i love u..a love that transcends from god..

p.s:1 john 4 has wonderful verses..

new ppl..new experiences..still the old me?

run..swim..work..sleep..eat...

sounds like a good routine to me..n yet..things have been flickin in n out of life..like a light..sometimes i feel that i should try to fix the bulb..

how do we know wat is the right frequency to shine...should we shine green blue or yellow?im grateful that i know im blessed with all colours..yet...is it b etter to be a floodlight?or a rainbow?

i guess gods plan is something we shall spend years searching for..

right now..im torn in 2 in more than one way..the head, heart..n inner

not recent but memorable

nothing unusual nothing strange
close to nothing at all
the same old scenario the same old rain
and there's no explosions here
then something unusual something strange
comes from nothing at all

story of old
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me
nothing unusual nothing's changed
just a little older that's all
you know when you've found it there's something i've learned
'cause you feel it when they take it away hey hey
then something unusual something strange
comes from nothing at all
brings a change for you and me
amie come sit on my wall and read me the story of o
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me

m i ok?....really?

welll..a's r out..

lousy results...

but wat to do..not that surprised but disappointed..haf returned to mediocrity..:'(..sigh

sent in my application for poly..hopeing physio will be ok ..been having doubts bout alot of things recently...funny thing is for once im not doubting my abilities..im jz doubting wat i do..i really do enjoy things most other ppl dun..

For example,

Packin my schedule(im a workaholic i guess), jz wanna make sure im not behind every1..i always like to go the path most others dun..n then after taht i agonize about how uncertain the path is...

odd..

the way i do things..

y?

i shut down..when ppl tell me stuff..y cant i jz accept criticism..y cant i learn with n open heart..

i know i can learn..but y this mental block...

on a cheerie note..workin i definatly tr aining my PR skills n adaption to new environments..u meet all types of ppl..

i never realised the average singaporeans plight..i guess..service is in my blood..i really enjoy it..

odd that i have a gift in leadership..but enjoy serving..

y...

m i really ok...

p.s:photos r from trip with ken to sentosa..

March 06, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (4)